2 DOWN!!..4 more to go!!...WOOTS!~!!
Jus had my GP and mt papers today....gp was...er...ok(?)..and mt?...fell asleep...who cares now anyway...4 more to go...1 more week...
went to many blogs...and omg..so many ppl complaining bout wad to do after promos..gonna start planning now doe....
(1) get a part time job (hopefully Sakae) right after promos (who dosn't need tt extra cash after promos?)
(2) go gym...(i realised how weak i am...have to train liao...)
(3) climb rock wall (addicted (= )
(4) kayaking!! (wanna try!!)
(5) night-cycling/round island cycling!!
(6) OBS?...hmm....
(7) slap nic in the face and tell him "I AIN'T GOT NO LOVE LIFE TO BLOG ABOUT!!!"..lol
(8) someone teach me harmonica can?
(9) think about more things to do after promos....
whee!~!!...can't wait!!...ONE WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So 我们 Get High 用双手把天撑开 Oh Get High 要所有人都明白泪水都不应该 因为我有你的爱 Baby You Are Always On My Mind
28 September, 2006 at 8:10 pm
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normal??....wad's tt??..
ok...this entry's inspiration should be credited to last yr's May edition of Discover..with the article entitled "What Do Animals Think?" by Verlyn Klinkenborg..was rereading some of my magazines a few days ago n found this...something i noticed long ago but didn't care to read...
this article is basically an interview of Temple Gradin, plus a lot of the author's comments...Temple Gradin is probably the most popular autistic person in the US.."Autistic peole think the same way as animals."...she had mentioned matter-of-factly...this is not in anyway an insult but a keen observation...according to her, autistic people, like animals, absorb information in its purest form; in it's raw state...which is y even when autistic people desire affection, they feel very uncomfortable when offered as "it was just too overwhlming..like a tidal wave of sensation drowning me"...whereas we...the normal people...dun see much...we see big pictures by filtering out things that we do not wish to see...tt's y we revise all our stuff n we almost never find out wad we dunno....
then it addresses on how humans are highly adaptable, yet we are trapped because of our adaptability...we have made things so tt they resemble wad we call 'normality'..the way we try to understand non-human things is to make them as human as possible...like wondering whether your dog truely loves u...den again, love may be a truely human emotion that animals don't understand..we and them are living in 2 completelty different worlds....what's more, we live in world where Gradin will call 'abstractificated'...living in a world that is defined by the way of our thoughts and ideas..in this way, we do tend to miss things out...in fact a lot of them...IMO, it's probably because of this tt we start to take things for granted...opening ur eyes is never gonna be enough..it's the mind tt requires opening up...we hav lived in an arrogant society tt is merely brought into existance by our mere ideas and thoughts, at the expense of the natural...open ur mind, and tell the difference...
i can't help you fix urself,
well at least i can say i tried,
i'm sorry but i gotta move in with my own life
26 September, 2006 at 4:30 pm
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if only...
YOu know, every now and then, everyone goes through this period of time when you start to think wad in the world are you living for and you can just sit for an entire day and still can't get an answer?....
Then paranoia sets in, then unexplainable gloom and lonliness, then u start to think why are u thinking like that. Pure waste of time. Then u start to think about all the things that once were so so so importent to you simply just doesn't even matter to you anymore? Then after a while you just feel so fresh and revivied and all geared up to start all over again?
I guess i'm somewhere stuck between paranoia and gloom right now. Funny how you can start to imagine all those very, very out of this world situations that sometimes just freak out. An active imagination that canno be controlled will NOT improve things. Such is the life of a mentally-deprived kid sucking up to sci-fi novels for the last eight years. then again, i would't be where i am today without those stuff. Anyways,while at this point of stage and time, with the promos looming so near and so many problems still left unsolved, all the if-onlys starts to apear one after another...
1)If only I've spent less money on toys...i wouldn't be so freaking broke now...
2)If only I've been more forgetful..maybe some of the things i keep thinking about would just go away...
3)If only I wasn't so forgetful...then i wouldn't keep forgeting the wrong things...
4)If only I didn't hide in this mask all the time, things may have been better, even better then now...
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so much, yet in reality, so little...
most of us jus live..in regrets and all...but who really has a life out there now?..
22 September, 2006 at 11:05 pm
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The night of 6 plays(2)...
....back from the 'more then one day' interlude....without furthe delay...
The BoxThis play has its settings on a shelf, with the 5 charecters being toys...the confused yet determind Jack-in-a-box, the incredibly strict queen from a chess set, the happy-go-lucky puppet, an abandoned pessimistic old doll and lastly..a 2 day old ballerina....a note to take is that they are all arranged in a straight line along the shelf with jack ont the left and everything else towards the right as the order given..ok..the play starts, and jack wants to meet the ballerina..but the obviou problem is how confined he is in tt box...nevertheless, he somehow hopped and hopped and met the queen....the queen was, naturally very unahppy, being one who believes strongly in structure, in the order and peace it provides..here, jack got a lecture on how structure maintains order, by providing specific guidelines for one to follow, although she is a bit fed up protecting a weakling..^^...she also says that structure should never be forgone by happiness as it will only bring about chaos...but that does not deter jack (it's so weird saying my own name over and over again...but anyway..) and he moves on..and he meets the puppet...the puppet was different...who felt that happiness was most importent..she tells tales of how she has already explored the whole of Missus room and how she had been save by Missus..and here she takes for granted the fact that she will always be safe, and will be so even if she forgoes the structure...encouraged, jack moves on (HoPPed) and meets the doll...who sat in its path, refusing to move..the doll was Missus' toy when she was a baby, but as she grew, he got abandoned, leaving him on the shelf to literally fall apart..he starts talking about how he was safe in a structure, how protected he was and how
dependant he was on that structure...jack on the other hand decided to press on and in his violent attempts to dislodge from the box, he fell over...this sparked an argument b/w all the toys, except the ballerina...who sang and shut everyone up...lol...while this was going on, jack got himself busy unscrewing(sounds wrong...so WRONG!!) himself from the box..the play ends with him getting outta the box and offering his hand to the ballerina...what this play is probably about is the constant struggle we have to face when choosing to conform to both structure and the nedd to search for own happiness..do we realy have to live in the way others dictate us to? or do we break free and find our own ways of living?...
Sixty degreeshonestly?...i didn't like this...very superficial and boring...jus one with lots of bangs and swearings...
A very serious playdo not be tricked by this title..there is no attempt at sarcasm, and it was very very serious...to me...it would be the most profound play of all...this one touches on the sensitive issue of religion..when it begins...a recording of a prayer is played..and when it ends, a beam of light shown down on centre stage, lighting up a group of 5, laughing...one by one, they break from the group, muttering "day afer day"....then they started walkin...some with confidence, some with fear..perhaps it show how religion can affect all walks of life?...they then move into different postures, showing fear, despair, enlightement and so on..perhaps religion brings all that?..or does that bring more meaning to religion?...next..all charecters stand and started uttering 'day after day' repeatedly, with one actor muttering very very quickly about the life of a man...does this show how religion can affect one and their choices in their everyday lives?...this scene ends and is replaced by 3 charecters, a devouant soul, a non-believer, and a confused one...much was said b/w the 3 and it ended, with the confuse done laughing, walking away...and the devouant soul and the non-believer picking up a chain of beads and a handphone respectively..the struggle that technology and religion has?...the next scene...2 prisoners, taken into custody..both claiming that their deeds were done in the name of a higher power....so should them be forgiven?...much is really addressed within this short span...and i'm still thinking thru...i'll get back when i have something ya?...
there is only so much one can do....get the most done and don't turn back...
10 September, 2006 at 10:25 pm
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The night of 6 plays...
okok...went to this play 2 nights before...at the DBS Arts Centre..it was the night when the students of ACJC are gonna take their exams....some of them were....not TOO bad...others were too profound for me..so i'll jus try to interpret them...but these are MY interpretaions...so might not be accurate..
Schmaltzthis play is an exploration of how an individual can feel controlled by the society...where the society does not allow one to feelwad one truely feels..."i'm not allowed to feel sad!!"...
The Boythis play...is..er...about..a..boy..right....it starts off..with Oliver...he was found, by a lake...covered in bruises..he was brought to a nursing home, by Rose, to help him recover..Ivan, another worker of the home, was in charge of consulting him, finding out his problems...Oliver was a strange boy, ever often so lost in his own world, and sometimes breaking out in fits of rage, and always finds peace in the lake...it was by coincidence..that one day...in a fit of rage, Rose brought him to the lake to calm him down..removing his coat, she found a news article...(some person's name/ i forgot), father of Oliver Lim was found dead in the lake on 8th of August 2006, her son was later found, covered in bruises further down the lake, the police has yet to release any comments regarding the issue...horrified at the truth, Rose ran offstage....Should the boy love and forgive his father?...or continue hating his father for his abuse?...
Left or RightThis play was about, as the name may suggest, choices...more specifiacally, it tries to show (to me) how choices are made, sometimes irrationally, and how it can affect the ones concerned...the play itself is divided into 2 linear plots, and everytime a choice is made, a bell goes...the story starts off, with mother and daughter...mother goes on..at length, to try to tell how much she loves her daughter, and how she was protected and that prevented her from telling her daughter something impt....tt her life is ending..her muscles will soon fail, her nervous system will break down, leaving her trapped in a body she can't control..this is when she pleaded her daughter, to pull the plug when the time comes...the daughter was against it...totally..i mean..who wouldn't?...but ultimately, she agreed...in this first plot, we see 3 choices being made..the choice of the parent in telling the child the truth, the parent in pleading the child to pull the plug, and finally, the child in agreeing to the parents request..in the second plot, the charecter changes,with the first part (the period of time before the first choice was made), this time, a mother and her rebellious son..the mother repeats the same line, and the son reamins dtubbon and refuses to listen, blaming the mother for her lack of ] show [ of love...next part, the charecter changes again, when the father is now trying to convince his daughter to pull the plug...the daughter refuses, wanting to use her father's saving (which is for her education) for his medication, her father refuses....part three...son and father...father wants son to pull the plug..but son strongly strongly refuses..."i''m not strong enuf dad..i'm not strong enuf.."
the msg is clear..wadeva choice we make....it will affect those who are involved...rather then looking from jus ur own pt of view, it would really help if one chooses to make a choice from other ppl's shoes as well..it other words..a rational choice.......
ok,.....heres's the interlude...and i'm tired...the other 3 plays will be updated when i feel like it....
who we are today are the summation of all the choices we have once made, whether we were aware or not..
09 September, 2006 at 8:04 pm
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ok...starting out....i am very bad at introductions...so..lets skip it shall we?....no?...fine....
jus click on the first link on ur right..ya...the topmost one...and everything(almost) is there......:P
08 September, 2006 at 6:29 pm
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